2more weeks

2more weeks till my due, operation will be done for dylan to be out. recently, many things has happened. including me now knowing what type of person dylan's father is. few days back, i quarreled with him, he called me in the middle of the night and told me off. i cried like waterfall. i dont know what happened to him, but he's just so scary . nobody ever talk/scolded me in this way . he is just way too scary manz . if i haven't met him 4 years ago, things will never be the same. i'll be studying now, i'll be a good girl. i'll study hard not in a situation i'm in now- pregnent .

time pass so fast . so darn scary .

i'm not sure, if i could even provide dylan with clothings, food, and everything he needs next time. To be serious, dylan was a burden to me and my parents. but, no doubts. he's my child . i cant change the fact about it . 9 months in my tummy , and i can't said that i have no feelings for him.

i cant continue any longer with his dad.after that wakeup call tht night, i truly wokeup. knowing what type of person he is. Somethings, when are said out, can no longer be taken back .

i do love him , but he's way too scary for me to continue life with him for the rest of my life.

i needa reconsider everything between us . giving both of us some time to think over .

till here.